I dont know how to do this anymore. Just when i thought things will slowly get better, Its not. Ever since you left, its one thing after another. I dont know if im overreacting but it sure feels like things are not getting any better. How I wish you were here to make things go away. How i wish you were healthy & strong like how you have been 3 years ago. How i wish you hadnt left. I need you right now, Mak. I need you so badly. My life is so messed up right now. My mind is even more messed up. I keep crying. I keep thinking of you. Everytime i close my eyes, i kept seeing how you suffered before you left. I wished you had last words to say to me before you went away. To tell me how much you love me, how i should take care of my life, how things will be ok when you’re gone. Basically, i just want you to say anything to me. Anything at all. As long as its for me. I know that
not e greatest child & i still am not now but Mak please guide me through this like how you’ve always did. Truth to be told, i still have no courage to visit you just yet. I still cant accept e fact that you are gone. Even till now, i still feel that you are still around. Like you never left.
But you left. Left me. I have many regrets when it comes to you but i know its too late. None of this would have happened if i still have you. I miss you, Mak. I miss you so much.